HOLD ON TO YOURSELF

by Friendship Commanders

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    3. JUNEBUG (2017) - black 7" / 33 RPM / 4 song EP

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I’d like to know when you’re out there on your own and you cast your eyes back home am I in black and white or color? do you know? when you left me there alone I came away from it too old? and you don’t like the way I am now yes, I’ve grown and like the liar radio your mind creates a status quo and I’m the non-stop news I am the enemy, the enemy, I know! and like the tv on the wall your mind creates a static crawl and I’m the non-stop news I am the enemy, the enemy, I know! I’M NOT YOUR ENEMY I’M NOT YOUR ENEMY I’M NOT YOUR ENEMY where are we now? do we give up and disavow? or tunnel through the shit somehow? I think I’m moving on and living this out loud I’m still alive! I lived to tell and have some pride your suffering can not be mine no, not this time and like the liar radio your mind creates a status quo and I’m the non-stop news I am the enemy, the enemy, I know! and like the tv on the wall your mind creates a static crawl and I’m the non-stop news I am the enemy, the enemy, I know! I’M NOT YOUR ENEMY I’M NOT YOUR ENEMY I’M NOT YOUR ENEMY I’M NOT YOUR ENEMY I’M NOT YOUR ENEMY I’M NOT YOUR ENEMY I’M NOT YOUR ENEMY I’M NOT YOUR ENEMY I’M NOT YOUR ENEMY
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some got high enough to lose their ground, lose themselves some unkind enough to injure others when they fell who do we help up, and who do we leave? is flat-on-the-floor just the place some need? do I live among monsters? I feel afraid are we safe? are we safe? are we safe? can you imagine a world where you feel okay? I don’t want to be the only one out on the ledge but I will do it if a single ray of light is shed but, where is the line here, and why is it me? put in your new eyes today and let’s all see! do I live among monsters? am I the same? are we safe? are we safe? are we safe? can you imagine a world where you feel no pain? are we safe? are we safe? are we safe? can you imagine a world where you feel no hate? do I live among monsters? I feel afraid do I live among monsters? I feel afraid do I live among monsters? am I the same? do I live among monsters? don’t say my name!
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how’s your ego doing? tell him I say hi tell him I skipped town with my life in tow I’m living way outside how’s the fire burning? how’s the sense of pride? tell him I said best of luck forever from the nameless bride I would know you anywhere I’d know your eyes you remain familiar like the tissue healed from bites I would know you anywhere I’d know your lies forever familiar like the history of the age-old fight how’s your ego doing? all these miles away now all I see is hope sometimes pressure and relief are hostage in the same ol’ boat I may not be ready I may not be well but I am sick and tired of the sameness you propel - we’re not the same! I would know you anywhere I’d know your eyes you remain familiar like the tissue healed from bites I would know you anywhere I’d know your lies forever imposing like the history of the age-old fight how’s your ego doing? give me one reason to stay give me one reason to try if this is all there is let’s wave goodbye
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some of our eyes don't see the same and our senses lead the brain we don't answer to a name we are the kind that can't be tamed no one's learning anymore I know, I know no one's coming up with ways for us to grow it's a culture without guts a culture without us and I, for one, am never dressing up I saw two crows the other day they were all business and no play when they were done they flew away they were all black; the sky was grey no one's learning anymore I know, I know no one's coming up with ways for us to grow it's a culture without guts a culture made of lust and I, for one, am never dressing up we are the wilderness, my child everything new comes from the wild don't be so timid and so mild cut through the trees and run a while cut through the trees and run a while everything new comes from the wild
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I saw the way their anger made me someone I didn’t want to know nineteen and living in a daydream (I wish I’d known then, but no) I see the anger in our distance I might have engineered a bit two ways of looking at the same thing (I wish it hurt less when I slid) if I call you, can you hear me? Or do you only hear yourself? if I call you, can you hear? you don’t have to hold with my expectations you don’t have to be just what I need you don’t have to hear July’s revelations you don’t have to live in fear of me you don’t have to make one of us a liar you don’t have to have to be somebody else I don’t want to hold your feet to the fire I just want to hold on to myself New York is nothing but a past life But I come and blend in with the rest We laugh and talk about the old days (I wish I remembered less) I don’t forgive with any ease now I’m living with too many scars I know you’ll never understand it (I wish your heart weren’t so hard) if I call you, can you hear me? Or do you only hear yourself? if I call you, can you hear? you don’t have to hold with my expectations you don’t have to be just what I need you don’t have to hear July’s revelations you don’t have to live in fear of me you don’t have to make one of us a liar you don’t have to have to be somebody else I don’t want to hold your feet to the fire I just want to hold on to myself hold on to myself.

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This record is dedicated to anyone who is living with, or has lived with, abuse. In solidarity. Hold on to yourself.

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released April 3, 2020

TTS058

Produced by Friendship Commanders
Engineered by Jerry Roe and Buick Audra at Fort Knockout, Nashville TN
Additional Engineering by Zaq Reynolds at the Sound Emporium, Nashville TN
Assistant engineering by Matt Luthie
Mixed by Kurt Ballou at GodCity Studio, Salem MA
Mastered by Brad Boatright at Audiosiege, Portland OR

All songs by Buick Audra
(Buick Audra Music / BMI)

Buick Audra - guitar and vocals
Jerry Roe - drums, bass, and harmony vocals

Front cover illustration by Buick Audra
Graphic design and layout by Buick Audra, Jerry Roe, and Ric Simenson

FC would like to thank Kurt Ballou, Brad Boatright, Zaq Reynolds, Matt Luthie, Ric Simenson, Ryan Quigley, Aaron Gray & Heavy Talent, Dave Johnson & Scale Model Guitars, Hime Amplification, Juanita Copeland & Sound Emporium, Baja Burrito, and Rocky y Tommy.

Buick Audra would like to thank the women, the truth-tellers, the fellow survivors, the Lakota people for their wisdom on spiders and their webs, Jerry, Boey, Tom Spaulding & D’Addario, and MESA.

Jerry Roe would like to thank Neil Peart, Chris Brewer & Meinl Cymbals, Scott Garrison & DW Hardware, Joe Testa & Vic Firth, Gregg Keplinger, Jeff Steiger at CAPI Gear, Joshua Colby at Vintage King, Chad Evans & Mark Ellis at Westlake Pro Audio, and Josh Thomas at Rupert Neve Designs/sE Electronics.

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Friendship Commanders Nashville, Tennessee

Melodic heavy music from Nashville TN.

Buick Audra // Guitar and vocals
Jerry Roe // Drums and harmony vocals

Booking // aaron@heavytalent.com

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